obligatory life update post:

I’m on medication right now (an antidepressive and another one that’s supposed to curb suicidal impulses). I was hesitant about starting the treatment at first, but now i see it’s not such a big deal. It’s not like it’s super strong medication or anything, it’s mostly to stabilize me so i might go through this semester without any other major incidents. I still don’t like the idea of having to take medication every day, but hopefully i’ll be able to drop them once i’ve developed appropriate coping mechanisms for my problems
College is being very hard but I’m not in a state of total despair like i used to be a few weeks ago. I can still turn things around if i work hard enough. I might have to take Anatomy again next semester (which would suck balls but lol what else to do) but I’m studying hard to lessen that probability. Biochemistry is another concern but i’m working on that as well.
I’m seeing the university’s psychologist (who’s an awesome lady who’s been helping other students from my class as well), and she’s helping me find better studying methods. Hopefully next semester won’t be so hectic as this one has been, if i manage to get good grades early on.
I really want to develop better coping methods for this sort of situations, since health careers are plaged with constant stress and all. But i think i can do it. I must.