therealgonzoldyck:

“Gon…sometimes you’re too radiant and I can’t see the immediate truth, but…can I still stay…by your side…?”

As in, Gon is an optimistic fool. (He’s called that several times throughout the manga…especially in the GI arc)

Killua knows he is too optimistic. But doesn’t care and wants to stay with him.

Gon’s self-realization is his demise at the end when his reality is shattered in half: his reality of truly believing Kite to be alive and believing that Pitou was nothing but a merciless monster (so to see him care about another human flew Gon over the edge even more so). Gon had a mental breakdown, (when his mind was arguing with himself before he transformed) and reached a despair “event horizon” after all of his beliefs came crumbling down; reaching a point/breakdown level of no return. He was like 13/14 yrs old, his mind and emotions not fully matured. Give the kid a freakin break.

Also, the darkening of Gon’s soul (realization that Gon is not pure light aka: happiness/positivity) that Killua witnessed, along with feeling helpless that he can’t help bring back his light (positivity) and the fear that Gon wanted his help as a teammate vs a friend is his breakdown during the arc. To some, this could be considered canonically in love because he’s a bit toooooo upset over it…you can say platonic…sure…but remember Togashi is an LGTB activist and he actually referred Gon/Killua as small Sensui/ Itsuki’s from his other manga YYH, who were an official couple. And in fact, the personalities of the two pairs are quite similar. And if Killua was a girl, people would not question the fact that he may quite possibly be in love with Gon. (Just some food for thought)

And the anime completely fucked the relationship up with Kite & Gon vs. in the manga. Kite is first introduced in Chapter 1. He’s the one who told Gon about the existence of Hunters & gave Ging’s hunter license to Gon to hold onto; instilling a trust and bond between the two. Mito-San originally told Gon that both his parents were dead & she was so confused when he wanted to apply for the Hunters exam because she never told him about it. And when Kite and Gon meet up again, (in the manga) it’s actually a very happy reunion, they know each other right off the bat. The first thing Kite says to him is “Gon-chan!”, and continuously calls him by the term of endearment throughout their time together. He’s very, very kind to Gon in the manga and teaches both he & Killua HOW to be a hunter, how to fight, what to do and what not to do. Kite was the father Ging should have been. Also, he continuously informed Gon and Killua to not go into the NGL unless they were absolutely certain they were ready…which they continued to tell him they were. Then Kite died because they didn’t run when he told them too and Kite protected them. Gon felt extremely responsible for his death. Plus, weakness has always been Gon’s greatest fear…and to believe that his mentor died because he couldn’t fight along side him just aided in his brutal revenge of proving his strength to Pitou.

Just figured I’d inform those who only watched the anime and were kinda like “wtf?” about Gon going crazy over Kite. And Gon hate…STOP THE GON HATE.

He is more than his mistakes. Gon was the only one who beat a royal Chimera Ant other than the god damn president of the Hunter’s association. He beat Greed Island (and in fact was the winner of the last written test of the game….sayyyy what? he’s not a fucking moron? no way.) He beat Genthru, lost a hand and his vocal cords, and walked away like a mutha fuckin boss. AND, yes, he’s fearless to a fault…but he’s not intentionally a selfish person. He would never, ever, ever, intentionally put a loved one in danger. He hated when Killua talked about dying when they were captured, he flipped out during the dodgeball game when Killua almost got hit by the ball that could have killed him. And we ALL know Gon would die along side Killua without hesitation if the roles had been reversed.